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and life goes on. every day you solve a problem and get another one. its been always like this, it seems. i dont think its a fair trade, but its something we get used to deal with as tears go by.  its never a quiet ride, but its rocky and you cant control it. you get rocky too, even if you dont want to.

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and i still remember my last night with her. she had no idea about what was ahead of her. she had just been having a regular day and i had been having a dog day. the roles had been exchanged. around eleven pm we ate a carrot-chocolate cake, and she had loads and loads of it. i just coudnt stop feeding her, and she was never full and never unhappy. that´s something she never was, and i hope, never is and will be. later we watched forrest gump and slept on the couch. the next morning i had already become a different person. dont know if for the best or worst. given the recent facts i guess for  the worst.