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and life goes on. every day you solve a problem and get another one. its been always like this, it seems. i dont think its a fair trade, but its something we get used to deal with as tears go by.  its never a quiet ride, but its rocky and you cant control it. you get rocky too, even if you dont want to.

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and i still remember my last night with her. she had no idea about what was ahead of her. she had just been having a regular day and i had been having a dog day. the roles had been exchanged. around eleven pm we ate a carrot-chocolate cake, and she had loads and loads of it. i just coudnt stop feeding her, and she was never full and never unhappy. that´s something she never was, and i hope, never is and will be. later we watched forrest gump and slept on the couch. the next morning i had already become a different person. dont know if for the best or worst. given the recent facts i guess for  the worst.

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she must understand that i admire hank moody cause of his lifestyle, and his car and his writing skills, and not for his hability to allure ladies and have pussies for dinner (and lunch and breakfast). i admit its hard to understand that, given that in every bloody episode you get to see hot chicks and their boobs, ass and silhouette. the show is awesome to follow and i would even consider not watching (fully) the naked-ladies-part. she must understand i respect her too.

'...and i can´t wait, till i get home, to pass the time in my room alone...'

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it all came back last night, after seeing this helpless lady dog abandoned (or lost, maybe) at the entrance of the 'school'. i wonder how a person can do this to someone that is always there for you and that does everything but make you feel bad. someone that misses you to the bones and would die and kill for you. but that´s another sad problem that some people make others face.

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sometimes even the littlest things have the power to make you happy for sometime. it can be writing in a blog, for example. i have this new blog now and even knowing it wont be anything it feels nice to update it. i dont know how long it will last but for now  it fits me nicely. however whats been keeping me fun currently is soccer. when i find a place with people to play with, its delightful. the next day is always hard but the feeling from the night before are worth a lot of pain or black eyes. and when you play well you feel like a pro. weird.